Daily Diary

Lama tak menarikan jari di laman ini. lama aku menyepikan diri. kini ku mulakan lagi. 

Ramadhan ke 21, 2025

Berbuka puasa dengan semua siblings.

Ingatkan dah okay. Ingatkan diri ni dah cukup kuat. Tapi tanpa sedar jari masih menggeletar. 

My social battery drained like waterfall. Drop fast from uphill.

Separuh mati cuba bertenang. Separuh nyawa hanya untuk bertahan. Bertahan untuk kelihatan normal dan 

tiada apa apa. Berlagak seolah olah tiada sakit yang di tanggung.

Hakikat? Dada sesak bagai nak pecah, tangan menggigil diluar kawal.

Masih senangkah jadi seorang aku?


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